For me, this is a very complex multi-part concept.
First, “being alive” is about the brightness of living, an open, non-patterned perception, about being in the moment.
On the other hand, it is about a sense of contact with some broader, timeless context of my life, a conditional personal eternity.
Both are possible only if the importance of the “now” is lowered, which is not about the current moment, but also not about always and in general. “I am this year”, “I am today”, “I am in these circumstances (in this place, at this job, in this “state”, etc.)” – all this is important, of course, but if it starts to guide me, I don't feel alive anymore.
Secondly, “being alive” is about experiencing interest, depth, involvement, uniqueness, completeness. All these feelings have no modality, you can be happy and alive, you can suffer and be alive. And sometimes, on the contrary, there is an absorbing, impersonal joy or a dull everyday suffering that I do not associate with being alive.
For me, this is a very complex multi-part concept.
First, “being alive” is about the brightness of living, an open, non-patterned perception, about being in the moment.
On the other hand, it is about a sense of contact with some broader, timeless context of my life, a conditional personal eternity.
Both are possible only if the importance of the “now” is lowered, which is not about the current moment, but also not about always and in general. “I am this year”, “I am today”, “I am in these circumstances (in this place, at this job, in this “state”, etc.)” – all this is important, of course, but if it starts to guide me, I don't feel alive anymore.
Secondly, “being alive” is about experiencing interest, depth, involvement, uniqueness, completeness. All these feelings have no modality, you can be happy and alive, you can suffer and be alive. And sometimes, on the contrary, there is an absorbing, impersonal joy or a dull everyday suffering that I do not associate with being alive.